Lemon Tart Heaven
For weeks I have had a bakery in the back, front, and side of my mind. Beaucoup Bakery on Fir St in Vancouver. You see, I've been reading about Jackie Kai Ellis' journey to her landing spot today, a bakery owner, a travel and lifestyle writer, and the owner of The Paris Tours. The Measure of My Powers - A memoir of Food, Misery, and Paris came off the bookshelves at me. I'm glad I bought it as any woman's story put down in ink and sweat and heartache and depression is worth a read.
When I hear of women like Jackie who have pursued their passion to bake and/or write, I like to read about their triggers for overcoming their own self-doubt.
I used to take big steps. I would think about what type of career I might be be good at, and sign up for a course. Never considered it from the point of view of "what would interest me, what would bring a smile to my face". It was always about whether it would sustain me and mine. I don't think I ever took a course that I would consider for enjoyment. The courses, some of them, would be extensive - 8 or 12 weeks, and at times I had babies and toddlers. It's been a while since I've wondered if another path is for me.
So today, I decided to go to Beaucoup. Break the routine of lunchtime at my desk with a salad out of a plastic container. It was a small, up-a-couple-of-steps-till-you-get-to-the-counter type of place. And I was shy. I had big plans to take pictures, and really take my time picking out a treat. But in the end, I found a perfectly rounded circle of crust holding a small swimming pool of lemony filled heaven, which they carefully placed in a beautiful little box with the Beaucoup sticker in just the right spot. And I took that little piece of heaven out to my car, and dutifully ate my salad in the plastic bowl, and then I spent wonderful minutes appreciating the luxuriant motions of opening that little box, exposing the sight of that baking wonder, and consumed every last morsel.
You move forward by taking steps, and it doesn't matter whether they are big or small. You just need to take them, because they usually place you in a sweet spot you never knew was waiting for you. I hope I remember that again tomorrow.